My music performance anxiety has returned, most likely fed by Imposter Syndrome. Who has got it now (I do)? Who has had it and gotten past it (I have)? and Who feels like talking about it or sharing their experiences?
I'll go first. When I first started relearning guitar in 2008 I stumbled in to a weekly jam session with co-workers. I am an introvert and all my life have had varying degrees of discomfort with being the center of attention. At my first open mic I was terrified, had my eyes glued to the lead sheet, and felt like I bombed. In reality hardly anyone was listening. It took six months for me to go back, better prepared this time, and I slowly got better and felt more confident as I went back and became more familiar with the setting. I repeated that same cycle of fear, practice, and faking it until I made it at the music association I belong to, first in a singer-songwriter circle, then in jam sessions, then performing as part of music association shows, then and at the farmers market where @Chip Withrow and I used to (and hopefully soon again will) hang out.
Now with all the other stress of late, my performance anxiety/Imposter Syndrome is back. I watch my videos and listen to my recordings and cringe. I know that I need to restart again. I know that I am my own worst critic and I don't see myself the way others see me. Probably live streaming on one of the semi-obscure platforms is my best option. Practicing my songs more might also be a good idea.
Would anyone else like to share?