after a few days of writer’s block, a small thing that happened to me today inspired me to write this song.
as a trans woman relatively early in her transition, i still look like a man to most people, leading most people to just automatically assume I’m a man, no matter what I do, and no matter what I wear. people automatically call me by masculine pronouns (ie “he,” “sir,” “mister,” etc) and I’m just too timid to correct them. even when I wear a dress and makeup, people still tend to just see me as “a man in a dress,” rather than a woman. I know i shouldnt let little things like this get to me, but they add up. it’s extremely emotionally and mentally exhausting to be called by the wrong gender constantly, even if it’s unintentional. sometimes I just want to scream to the world “I’m a woman, goddammit!”
A woman on the street
Flagged me down asked me
to recommend somewhere to drink
She said I seemed like a hip guy
And my words they seemed to fail me
I choked out “I’m not a guy”
And I hurried up the street
Wrapped in my defeat
Cause I’m so tired of
being called a man,
everywhere I go
of course I know she didn’t know
but it’s wearing me right down to the bone.
when I wear a dress, what do people see?
they still see a man. nobody sees me
and when I’m in a store
and the cashier calls me “sir”
i want to say “it’s ma’am”
but I don’t want to make a scene.
so i keep my head down
as I collect my change
mutter a soft “thank you”
and get out of that place
people see what they will see
no matter what I do
I guess I look just like a man,
and no one has a clue.
I was meant to be a woman,
that’s just who I am.
but I was born into this body
that makes me look just like a man
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