don't wanna die
this was the first song i wrote for the 100/180 challenge, which i thought i needed really badly, and then quarantine ended. what i really needed was the re-recording of songs from my past repertoire that i accomplished during the quarantine. i posted some of them on the 100/180 facebook page, but not all.
but this was a song i needed to write, i could not get the image out of my head of how these people died, alone and intubated at the end, unable to finish anything in their life they needed to wrap up. i think that image is what spurred my re-recordings. i wanted those songs to at least be represented in a somewhat final form. there were over a hundred i picked-- 30 got done, just a bout the time of my personal quarantine. then life slipped back in and i'm recording no more.
so i hope this touches you, even if it churns your stomach slightly as it does mine. and let it motivate you as well.
if you can't stand cheaters in 50/90, this was written 3 months ago. so let it be then, and i apologize for offending your sensibilities.
(c) 04.09.2020 time and ink
i'm writing this now, while i still can
in between the tests and the scans
the later it gets, it's harder to breathe
not sure i'll even have time to grieve
don't wanna write this but i guess i should try
truth is i don't wanna die.
it hurts a good bit and i'm easily tired
but i'm willing to do whatever's required
the worst part is that no-one can visit
if they could i wouldn't wanna risk it
my thoughts drive me mad-- i'm not gonna lie
i just don't wanna die.
i just want to see my family and friends
don't want this to be the way it all ends
never got the chance to get stuff squared away
there's people to see and things to say
if prayin would work, god knows i'd try
no, i don't wanna die... alone.
i don't wanna die, no i don't wanna die
i sleep and i weep and i sigh and i cry
they're wrong-- today's not a good day to die
i just don't wanna die... alone.
they tell me there isn't much more they can do
i'm going to die from this wretched new flu
soon they'll come put me under and tube me
no promise it'll work-- but they'll see
so call up my family and set down the phone
i just don't want to die alone.
DOUBLE (?) CHORUS OUT
no i just don't wanna die alone.
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