Letter to My 21 year old Self
So, I decided to write myself a letter: the self who had gone through some trauma, but was at a crossroads in life....I had taken a job at Mt. Rainier National Park and for the first time in my life tasted freedom. But, that September, as I was trying to figure out how to break up with my abusive girlfriend and finally leave her (for good) she arrived on the scene to take me back to the university we attended. The next two and a half years, the abuse escalated to her threatening my life multiple times and me feeling suicidal.
That summer, I would read an inspirational postcard next to my bed, before getting ready for the day: "Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did."
I like to think that if I had escaped, leaving no forwarding address, at the end of that summer, I may have also had the courage to finish college earlier, pursue a Master's, possibly a PhD. I may have left my church at that point, too, as I was on the edge of doing so at that time.
I chose to direct her to Boston, because in an alternate universe, I may have met my husband here and we could still have fallen in love, though the time frame may have been a bit different. Still, it could have happened.
Hey you! It's me from the future:
I mean YOU, myself and I.
You're looking to escape this moment.
Please, go ahead and try.
You are brave enough. You are bold enough.
You've got courage in high supply.
Each morning, you read that postcard.
So make a plan. Go ahead and fly.
Your fear is holding us back.
Don't let her come crawling in your bed.
When you get to Seattle,
Buy a plane ticket to Boston instead.
Get a job. Transfer schools.
Don't worry about your vocation.
Get it done! Have some fun.
Live simply. Pursue your passion.
One thing before I close this letter.
Write songs about your pain inside.
Leave the church, if you want to.
You don't need an alibi.
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